guys, i know its been a while since i've used this thing, but i am in desperate need of prayer right now like never before.

i just found out yesterday that my mom has a brain tumor the size of a raquetball in her head. this is devastating news to me and my family, because we had no idea anything was wrong. she's having a biopsy done this week to find out if its cancerous or not, but i REALLY need prayer right now for my family. i dont know how we're going to handle this. i feel so helpless. i dont want to lose my mom.

God is supreme and all powerful, but im having very little faith right now, to be honest. my family is hurting so much, and i dont know what to do.

please, please, please, pray for my family right now for this situation. thanks.

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ok, so exciting news.......

i'm working at Sky Ranch this summer as a camp counselor!! wOOt! i'm soooooo excited, and i can't wait until summer is here!

i'm so thankful for this job! i know God will absolutely bless the time i have with every kid this summer! and i can't wait to meet my fellow counselors! im so pumped!

in other news, i went home this weekend, because my parents threw my brother, Brock, a suprise 16th birthday party. bethany came home with me to go to the party and we had a blast! my parents actually got a Hummer limo for the night, and we went to Midevil Times. it was soooo much fun. especially driving around Dallas in a Hummer limo. it was glorious. my brother was totally suprised, and all his friends came and it was awesome!

bethany and i went shopping all day saturday, and got some good stuff. of course, i came home with more accessories than i did clothes. but, with me, thats a given. i got me some big Jackie O sunglasses. wOOt. it was fun getting to have a girl's day out and catching up on good times.

whelp, its definitely time for bed, but wanted to give a quick shout out to my xanga buds! hope you guys are all doing well!

God Bless!!

yep, so i havent xanga-ed in what seems like forever.....because who seriously reads my xanga anyway?!

i gotta get this off my chest, so xanga popped in my head as a good venting system. go figure.

lately i've just been feeling like all my frienships are one sided. meaning, i feel like im the only one making efforts to fellowship with my friends. i rarely get calls just to hang out....im usually the one to make the call, to initate getting together, etc. i feel like im losing some of my closest friends. i understand school is getting tough, and schedules are getting busier, but when they're hanging out with other people that kinda makes me feel not-so-needed or wanted. i know this is probably selfish of me (but who wouldn't want to spend quality time with the people they love?) and i understand that my close friends have other friends, but whats the point of being that close to people if you never hear from them or you see them less and less? i just want to FEEL that my best friends are my best friends. i am in no way trying to feel sorry for myself. thats NOT it at all. but when your close friends seem not-so-close anymore, it absolutely kills me. when i don't know things a friend should know about, it just makes me feel like im standing outside the relationship.

i don't want to be outside anymore.

so tonight, i took some ghetto quizzes online due to my sheer boredom, and this is what came out of it.......

my sexy brazillian name.......

LARISSA SANTORO

my 1920's name.........

ALFREDA QUEENIE

the rejected crayon color i would be......

TIME O' THE MONTH

the ben and jerry's ice cream flavor i would be.....

IN A HURRY FOR NOTHIN

i could go on with these quizzes all night.......

man, being back home is great. :)

today has been not so good.

my grandpa had to have unexpected heart surgery today, and he just got out of the operating room. it turns out they had to do a quadruple bypass on him, and these next 24 hours are crucial to him being ok. please pray for him. i would greatly appreciate it. i can sense the fear in my dads voice when i talk to him. i feel so helpless because im here and they're in dallas, and theres nothing i can do but sit and wait to hear how hes doing. so, pray for peace of  mind for my entire family including my grandmother. it was this exact time last year that we almost lost her. so, this is all extra emotional for everyone.

God's will is perfect, and i know His plan is best, but i just hope His plan is to keep my grandpa here with us for a while longer.